yes izham. i love you too.
this freaking cousin of mine, cant stop begging me to say to him 'i love you' since i rejected him, he said he'll still wait.. haha. so, izham, if ur reading this, satisfied? he's sleeping now in front of my dearest tv in my room. the tv's watching him. haha. maybe he's tired coz he went for Friday Prayers rite after school. i dont know why on earth he's here in my house. haha. damn cousin.. interrupting my life. =P haha. i love him btw. satisfied, cousin? hehe. i hope he reads this later.
this morning, at school, had history for the first two period. then it comes to PJ. obviously, i went out late coz that history teacher gave latihan. so i was searching for the answers and stuff. then, when everyone was busy talking to the two freaking PJ teacher, i went out with Yee Leng and Wei Lian to change into our PJ clothes. Later, we found out that the changing room was locked. so we decided to change in class. after changing, while talking to my 4 dearest bestfriends, i was putting my clothes in the bag and suddendly, that puan kamani came and started shouting like a woman that is gonna deliver a baby.. even worse than that. she said that because of us, the pengetua scolded all the PJ teachers. Like WTF la wey.. the pengetua didnt even walk by our class. just because of going out late once, we get blamed. !$@%#^$#% off la. shitness.
okay im gonna stop talking about her. wasting my time.
played badminton during PJ. After PJ, it was maths. Puan Lim Bee Lan supposed to be absent coz she gave us the homework for today the day before, but out of sudden, she appeared after 10 minutes.. haih. and she gave MORE homeworks. i repeat, MORE homeworks. everyone was frustrated. Nigel even said to me that she was crazy and need to be send to 'MPH' which stands for Mental Problem Hospital. haha. Then, it was recess.. Later it was Science. went to the lab and did PEKA a little bit and other exercises. By 12.30, it was time to go home. YAY! happy moments. haha. actually no. coz i felt so tired by then.
reached home at 2. had my bath, watched tv, and here i am. gotta get going now, need to complete my school and tution hw. and i really really need a nap. gonna go to daddy's office later to meet his seriously kind secretary to ask her to do something for me.. heh. typical me. no la. going there to see how my dad controls and keeps his company wealthy. :D its not an nessecity actually. just having fun there. kacau his workers there. they're damn friendly. of course la they have to be friendly.. it's their boss' daughter.. i can fire them anytime. haha. jkjk im not that bad.
bye! have a nice weekend.
Friday, April 13, 2007
Tuesday, March 20, 2007
lalala
waah. its been a week since i've blog. kind of busy. with holidays. got denggi. and got ADMITTED. wa laa. ahaha. luckily for 3 days only.
my wireless is making me mad these days. and the broadband, if raining and thunder storm it'll be like a GAY. will be turn off by itself. =_= so frustrating.
anyway, school holiday is over. the homeworks is getting more and more day by day. especially maths. im gonna be dead by october. :P haha. time runs so fast. we're so busy this year.
my cousin, Izham's here. playing ps3. alone. ahaha. serve you right izham! i dont want to play with ya! :P disturb me more, you'll be out of my house! :P
anyway, i have to attend my tution in another 15 minutes. im gonna disturb my cousin by eating haagen dazs icecream in front of him since it's his favourite flavour, he'll be losing concentration when he's playing. hehe. im so mean. haha. ;)
my wireless is making me mad these days. and the broadband, if raining and thunder storm it'll be like a GAY. will be turn off by itself. =_= so frustrating.
anyway, school holiday is over. the homeworks is getting more and more day by day. especially maths. im gonna be dead by october. :P haha. time runs so fast. we're so busy this year.
my cousin, Izham's here. playing ps3. alone. ahaha. serve you right izham! i dont want to play with ya! :P disturb me more, you'll be out of my house! :P
anyway, i have to attend my tution in another 15 minutes. im gonna disturb my cousin by eating haagen dazs icecream in front of him since it's his favourite flavour, he'll be losing concentration when he's playing. hehe. im so mean. haha. ;)
Thursday, March 08, 2007
exams
Exam was on the 1st,2nd, and 5th of March. Most of the papers were average standard. BUT, the results is ridiculous and shocked! haih.. my maths and science drop.. i screwed up in maths and science. all careless mistakes!! and its just the 1st TEST!! arrrgghhh! i'll be crazy if my marks drop in other subjects too. Luckily it didnt.
My class, Gamma, have been thought for the best class for all teachers through out the year, but now, it's the worst class. haihs.. everyone must work harder for the next exams that are coming. so that we can get back our names! its pratically unbelievable that some of our marks are lower than the other classes. did they stole our brain? haha.
anyways, holidays are coming in two days. hehe. can't wait.
hanisah's and shasha's birthday are around the corner. Maybe, im going for a holiday with my family. If not, i'll hang out with my friends, especially hanisah and shasha, since their birthday is coming.
Happy Holidays to all of you! have a nice holiday ya. :)
My class, Gamma, have been thought for the best class for all teachers through out the year, but now, it's the worst class. haihs.. everyone must work harder for the next exams that are coming. so that we can get back our names! its pratically unbelievable that some of our marks are lower than the other classes. did they stole our brain? haha.
anyways, holidays are coming in two days. hehe. can't wait.
hanisah's and shasha's birthday are around the corner. Maybe, im going for a holiday with my family. If not, i'll hang out with my friends, especially hanisah and shasha, since their birthday is coming.
Happy Holidays to all of you! have a nice holiday ya. :)
Sunday, February 25, 2007
its my mum's birthday! :)
yesterday was my mum's birthday.
she's 48. haha. wow she's getting older year by year. ;P
yesterday i spent my morning studying science and maths. Then in the afternoon, i went out with my brothers to find a birthday present for my mum. we ended buying nothing. ahaha :P
we'll try to find something nice later on.
In the evening, my family and I went for an early dinner. Since it's my mum's birthday, we went to J.W Marriot hotel in KL and have our dinner there. While we were half way dining, there's this family sat behind us and they have an one year old baby i think. the baby started playing with the fork and spoon. it was so anoyying. in my heart, i feel like i wanna kick that baby's ass. haha. and i hope the fork will poke his eyes or something to make him stop. :P he started knocking the table and the wall. what on earth is he thinking? want to test the wood of the table izzit? urgh. i was so annoyed! :P haha. after half an hour of knocking the wall and the table, the baby finally stop and suddenly cries. the fork he was holding accidentally knocked his teeth! that's why he cried. ahaha. thank god! at least it made him stop testing the table's wood or something. :P i ended my dinner smilling up to my ears. haha. :D
ahaha. okayy. i need to go study. exam's is around the corner.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAMA! I LOVE YA! :) THANKS FOR BEING A GREAT MOM TO ME OVER MY 14 YEARS OF LIVING. :D
she's 48. haha. wow she's getting older year by year. ;P
yesterday i spent my morning studying science and maths. Then in the afternoon, i went out with my brothers to find a birthday present for my mum. we ended buying nothing. ahaha :P
we'll try to find something nice later on.
In the evening, my family and I went for an early dinner. Since it's my mum's birthday, we went to J.W Marriot hotel in KL and have our dinner there. While we were half way dining, there's this family sat behind us and they have an one year old baby i think. the baby started playing with the fork and spoon. it was so anoyying. in my heart, i feel like i wanna kick that baby's ass. haha. and i hope the fork will poke his eyes or something to make him stop. :P he started knocking the table and the wall. what on earth is he thinking? want to test the wood of the table izzit? urgh. i was so annoyed! :P haha. after half an hour of knocking the wall and the table, the baby finally stop and suddenly cries. the fork he was holding accidentally knocked his teeth! that's why he cried. ahaha. thank god! at least it made him stop testing the table's wood or something. :P i ended my dinner smilling up to my ears. haha. :D
ahaha. okayy. i need to go study. exam's is around the corner.
Friday, February 23, 2007
heyya.
i know. i know. i've abandoned my blog for so long. but now, i promise i'll update everyday or once every two or three days.
okay. chinese new year is four days ago.. and i got money!! haha. from my neighbours.. weee! :)
total i got RM 400! i didnt expect that much. i thought i could just get RM 100. i didnt even go to their house. but they sent it to me.. coz i delivered them their gifts from my family. :) so thats all about chinese new year.
chinese new year holiday is kinda boring to me.. coz all i have to do is study for the exams coming. and all i get from doing maths is... tears run down my cheeks. :(
but it stop after my father came home and teach me.. :) i salute him! :P he rocks! haha.
im so bored right now. all i can hear is my neighbour's noisy crowd. they're having an open house. they put on chinese songs so loud! i couldnt understand a word! and they even karaoke! just now i went out of the house and carried along my cat. even my cat stares at them and growls.. haha. she's mad also coz they sang like frogs. ahaha :P Cant they just turn on the radio or something? i can be deaf listening to them singing all night! it's sound pollution! i hope someone complains and the police will come. haha! im so mean.. :P
i guess i'll stop here.. keep reading. :) will post again tomorrow. nitez. ;)
okay. chinese new year is four days ago.. and i got money!! haha. from my neighbours.. weee! :)
total i got RM 400! i didnt expect that much. i thought i could just get RM 100. i didnt even go to their house. but they sent it to me.. coz i delivered them their gifts from my family. :) so thats all about chinese new year.
chinese new year holiday is kinda boring to me.. coz all i have to do is study for the exams coming. and all i get from doing maths is... tears run down my cheeks. :(
but it stop after my father came home and teach me.. :) i salute him! :P he rocks! haha.
im so bored right now. all i can hear is my neighbour's noisy crowd. they're having an open house. they put on chinese songs so loud! i couldnt understand a word! and they even karaoke! just now i went out of the house and carried along my cat. even my cat stares at them and growls.. haha. she's mad also coz they sang like frogs. ahaha :P Cant they just turn on the radio or something? i can be deaf listening to them singing all night! it's sound pollution! i hope someone complains and the police will come. haha! im so mean.. :P
i guess i'll stop here.. keep reading. :) will post again tomorrow. nitez. ;)
Thursday, January 11, 2007
Daily life.
School has been in my daily activity now after schooling for two weeks. At first, i feel so lazy and tired to wake up early and go to school. but now i think my brain has set that i have to go to school everyday. although i always feel kind of sleepy in class. =P
This year is PMR year. everybody is preparing and scared about PMR. So do i.
but no matter how scared we are, we still have to take it unless we move to overseas this year.. ( i wish =D )
Everyone says Form 3 is a tough year. I can see that. In 10 months we have to be prepared for PMR. And 10 months is not that long. I hope that 10 months is enough. Time runs so fast. And im getting older. haha. although im one of the youngest student in form 3.. ahaha. =)
Study,study,study. Thats all i can hear from all parents. =P thats what my friends says. My parents says it too. Just for 10 months and we'll be relax after that. And i hope that 10 months past not too slow and not too fast.. just normal. but i kinda feel that everyday past so fast.
School is getting better day by day with best friends, and others. =) Laughing,cracking jokes, study and be serious together. It's so fun to go to school with best friends. Try to imagine we go to school with one teacher and no friends. it'll be boring all the way. haha.Having my friends, sha, hanisah, syafiqah, matt, alan, ryan, sheng, din, hasif, muz and others makes school way better. Being in 3 gamma is the best thing in school. with friends that is kind,helpful,friendly,funny and all. except for some of them la.. =P
This year is PMR year. everybody is preparing and scared about PMR. So do i.
but no matter how scared we are, we still have to take it unless we move to overseas this year.. ( i wish =D )
Everyone says Form 3 is a tough year. I can see that. In 10 months we have to be prepared for PMR. And 10 months is not that long. I hope that 10 months is enough. Time runs so fast. And im getting older. haha. although im one of the youngest student in form 3.. ahaha. =)
Study,study,study. Thats all i can hear from all parents. =P thats what my friends says. My parents says it too. Just for 10 months and we'll be relax after that. And i hope that 10 months past not too slow and not too fast.. just normal. but i kinda feel that everyday past so fast.
School is getting better day by day with best friends, and others. =) Laughing,cracking jokes, study and be serious together. It's so fun to go to school with best friends. Try to imagine we go to school with one teacher and no friends. it'll be boring all the way. haha.Having my friends, sha, hanisah, syafiqah, matt, alan, ryan, sheng, din, hasif, muz and others makes school way better. Being in 3 gamma is the best thing in school. with friends that is kind,helpful,friendly,funny and all. except for some of them la.. =P
Tuesday, December 19, 2006
I cant stand it anymore..
I hate my life. I’ve said a couple of times before but now I really mean it. I hate my life. I hate my family. Especially my bro. he started complaining about me to my parents but I didn’t do anything.
I told my parents that I wanted to go to the reunion party that is going to be held tomorrow at holiday villa. It’s a barbeque party. My parents agree with me that I can go. And then, a few days after I told my parents, my bro heard about it and started complaining about me. He said that I can go out so many times with friends this holidays. I went out just 5 times this holidays. But he went out like 10 times? He said that I can go out at night to that reunion but he cant go out with his friends at night. Like so what?
He’s just jealous because my parents let me. He did go out at night to a dinner that his college organize. And he even went to a dinner that his gf’s college organize but he said to my parents that it is his college one. I knew its not true but I didn’t tell my parents coz I know if I tell, my bro will start complaining if I go out. So I decided to kept quiet about it. But then he still complains about me.
I knew once he actually went out with his girlfriend but he told my mum that he is going to the library at his college. But I still kept quiet coz I don’t want to create trouble. but still, he complains about me. He said that I waste my dad’s money coz I went to Mexico. But my dad didn’t even complain about it. My bro is the one that just saying things that is not true coz when he wanted to go to a camping trip, my parents didn’t let him coz my parents were worried if anything happens to him coz that time my parents were not in Malaysia and there’s one time he told my parents that he wants too visit his friend in Indonesia and my parents didn’t let him coz there’s no adult since he is 18.
There’s this time he told my parents he wants to go to some trip with his friends to somewhere in Malaysia and my parents asked how is he going and he said by car with his friends. Of course my parents didn’t let him go coz they know how teenagers drive in Malaysia. Speeding without worrying if something happen. My parents still don’t let him drive far away coz there’s ones when he was driving and there’s this other car tried to take his lane and he was like mad and speed like hell. Its not my bro’s road or something to be mad. He just pass his driving test and he wants to be mad at some people that maybe had drive 20 years. How should my parents trust him on driving?
Apparently, I did a new specs coz my old one broke and my bro still complains that I waste money and stuff. How should I look clearly without my specs? Want me to be blind? Why cant I just live peacefully without any complains from my bro? My mum change her mind of letting me go to the reunion barbeque party coz my bro complains. And she thought it was not fair and stuff. But she just don’t know the truth that my bro went to his gf’s party last year and said it was one of his friend from school.
I just don’t know why he likes to complain even though I didn’t even tell my parents about him. I lied to my parents for him. He just don’t know how to appreciate what I did for him.
And now I just feel that I don’t need my life anymore.. why should I need my bro if he keeps complaining about me to my parents and not appreciate me for lying to parents for him? Why should I need him? Why should I live if I don’t have a peaceful life with my family especially my bro? why should I live if I am the one that always gets hurt? Why should I live then? I just hope that god take away my life and give it to some people that is trying to live from some sickness. And may the person live happily.
Since I was small, I always wanted to run away from home or kill myself when I fight with my bro but I told myself not to. I just love him so much till I cried so bad when I fight with him.Although i told you that i hate him but deep inside my heart I still love him because I know he is the only person that can make my day other then my parents and friends and my eldest bro that is studying in overseas. I always love him although he always makes me mad. Because I know he is the one that can give me love as a sibling other than my parents and friends. And now I realize that its just stupid for me to love him since he always hurts my feelings.
And to my 2nd brother, if you are reading this, please try to understand me and love me back as your sister. I always love you although you hurt my feelings a lot. Love from you as a brother is the only thing I want from you. Nothing else. Nothing else from you that can make me happy.
To my eldest brother, thanks for loving me as your sister although I seldom talk to you. I want you to know that I always love both of you. And love mum and dad.
I told my parents that I wanted to go to the reunion party that is going to be held tomorrow at holiday villa. It’s a barbeque party. My parents agree with me that I can go. And then, a few days after I told my parents, my bro heard about it and started complaining about me. He said that I can go out so many times with friends this holidays. I went out just 5 times this holidays. But he went out like 10 times? He said that I can go out at night to that reunion but he cant go out with his friends at night. Like so what?
He’s just jealous because my parents let me. He did go out at night to a dinner that his college organize. And he even went to a dinner that his gf’s college organize but he said to my parents that it is his college one. I knew its not true but I didn’t tell my parents coz I know if I tell, my bro will start complaining if I go out. So I decided to kept quiet about it. But then he still complains about me.
I knew once he actually went out with his girlfriend but he told my mum that he is going to the library at his college. But I still kept quiet coz I don’t want to create trouble. but still, he complains about me. He said that I waste my dad’s money coz I went to Mexico. But my dad didn’t even complain about it. My bro is the one that just saying things that is not true coz when he wanted to go to a camping trip, my parents didn’t let him coz my parents were worried if anything happens to him coz that time my parents were not in Malaysia and there’s one time he told my parents that he wants too visit his friend in Indonesia and my parents didn’t let him coz there’s no adult since he is 18.
There’s this time he told my parents he wants to go to some trip with his friends to somewhere in Malaysia and my parents asked how is he going and he said by car with his friends. Of course my parents didn’t let him go coz they know how teenagers drive in Malaysia. Speeding without worrying if something happen. My parents still don’t let him drive far away coz there’s ones when he was driving and there’s this other car tried to take his lane and he was like mad and speed like hell. Its not my bro’s road or something to be mad. He just pass his driving test and he wants to be mad at some people that maybe had drive 20 years. How should my parents trust him on driving?
Apparently, I did a new specs coz my old one broke and my bro still complains that I waste money and stuff. How should I look clearly without my specs? Want me to be blind? Why cant I just live peacefully without any complains from my bro? My mum change her mind of letting me go to the reunion barbeque party coz my bro complains. And she thought it was not fair and stuff. But she just don’t know the truth that my bro went to his gf’s party last year and said it was one of his friend from school.
I just don’t know why he likes to complain even though I didn’t even tell my parents about him. I lied to my parents for him. He just don’t know how to appreciate what I did for him.
And now I just feel that I don’t need my life anymore.. why should I need my bro if he keeps complaining about me to my parents and not appreciate me for lying to parents for him? Why should I need him? Why should I live if I don’t have a peaceful life with my family especially my bro? why should I live if I am the one that always gets hurt? Why should I live then? I just hope that god take away my life and give it to some people that is trying to live from some sickness. And may the person live happily.
Since I was small, I always wanted to run away from home or kill myself when I fight with my bro but I told myself not to. I just love him so much till I cried so bad when I fight with him.Although i told you that i hate him but deep inside my heart I still love him because I know he is the only person that can make my day other then my parents and friends and my eldest bro that is studying in overseas. I always love him although he always makes me mad. Because I know he is the one that can give me love as a sibling other than my parents and friends. And now I realize that its just stupid for me to love him since he always hurts my feelings.
And to my 2nd brother, if you are reading this, please try to understand me and love me back as your sister. I always love you although you hurt my feelings a lot. Love from you as a brother is the only thing I want from you. Nothing else. Nothing else from you that can make me happy.
To my eldest brother, thanks for loving me as your sister although I seldom talk to you. I want you to know that I always love both of you. And love mum and dad.
Sorry for posting such a long post. but this is the way i want to let my feelings go. I cant keep it all by myself anymore.. Like before this, i never tell anyone my problems.. but now, i cant just keep it myself anymore, its time for me to let it go. This post is just one of my problems. and it is so hard for me to tell but i just have to, coz i cant stand it anymore.
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